again

all i'm doing lately is stressing over everything, i need something to happen so that i know all my work went towards something. i am less then 2 weeks away from being homeless, fuck it all.

confused

you know when you have a love for someone where it's like you would do anything for them no matter what the circumstances were? and it's not a "i love you so much" love, it's just always there and you are always there for them.


yeah i want that to go away now.

finally;

it's time to be responsible, even if it is forced. i'm moving out, and for once i'm actually determined to succeed. i have this huge plan for my life and i don't want to mess it up anymore then i already have. i know that not having a job didn't come at the right moment, and i'm putting all my effort into finding something that will support me and be something i have a passion for. i've found the perfect place to live, the perfect school to attend, and the perfect state of mind where i know i can accomplish this. i'm finished with having to deal with all the pointless bullshit that is thrown my way constantly, i've gotten sucked into the drama one too many times. by the end of next year i want to move to seattle, arizona isn't where my heart is and i don't plan on trying to keep it here forever. i really need this, for me.